STRUGGLES

Throughout life there will always be struggles that we must go through. Some of them wil hurt us badly some will not. Either way we make it through to the other side. When going through a struggle sometimes we tend to give up and not try to deal with it. But, by doing that we make it harder on ourselves. We make ourselves appear weak. For those who don't give up are strong at heart and don't quit even in the worst of times. Some of the struggles people face are school, work, family, and friends. School to me is something hard to deal with but, I don't let it consume me. I keep my grades up and try to stay on top on homework, while also trying to get good grades on quizzes and tests. Work isn't something I have to deal with but, from friends and family I know its hard. The way coworkers and soem managers treat you is ridicous. And the work hours and wages also add to struggles in the job area. Family to me has the most difficult struggles. Parents put so much pressure on you and expect so much that it causes problems. They get really upset when you do the smallest of things. That causes you to get in arguments with your family and other things. When families can't solve their disputes some families end up breaking apart and some never come back together. A struggle not so hard as family that people go through is friends. Why is it that friends put you thought so much? Some people can't deal with it and hurt themselves more than others hurt them. Friends end up going through struggles when one of them may lie to the other or betray the other in some way or another. I guess the world can't be perfect so we must deal with struggles we have now and tackle those in the future.

Mother's Day Poem

I love you mother

You were always there for me

From childhood to teenhood

And you"re still here now

So today is the day you will be recognized

For all your work

For all the hard times I put you through

For all the times you cared for me

Nourished me

And raised me

You're a wonderful woman

There is no mother I would want over you

And because of that reason

I love you mother

HAPPY MOTHER'S DAY!!!!!

AARON D. BROWN

A- is for anxious, always willing to try something new

A- is for artistic, having wonderful creativity

R- is for respectful, being polite at all times

O- is for official, having my own style

N- is for Negro, proudly black

D'- is for diesel, having good strenght

A- is for anticipate, always looking forward

N- is for noble, showing high morale qualities

T- is for talkative, always chattering

H- is for honest, usually telling the truth

O- is for orderly, always being neat

N- is for nice, never being mean

Y- is for yellow, shining like the sun

B- is for boyfriend#2, come to me if he isn't treating you right

R- is for responsible, always being trusted

O- is for obedience, doing what I'm told

W- is for womanizer, always being a playa

N- is for near-sighted, only seeing objects clear when near them

OPEN HIGH GIRLS

What is the best thing God gave man? What makes school more interesting? What makes life so much more fun? GIRLS,GIRLS GIRLS. There is so much about girls that I like. I don't even know where to start because there is so much. Well ever since my first day at Open MOST of the girls there are cute and it's like every time you look around there is a sexy girl walking around doing something. In my other schools there were cute girls but I mean, the girls here just point blank good lookin. Or maybe it's just cause people are older so they look better. I don't know but, there are plenty to chose from. i don't think a guy at Open should ever be upset over a girl unless it is hard for them to get a girl. When it comes to me and the girls of Open I wouldn't say it's hard for me to talk to them or anything but I'm just shy and I shouldn't be. If you mess up with one then go to the next but, even after realizing that my shyness holds me back. That's why when it's normal for a guy to talk to a girl first I like it to be the other way around. It's funny when i think about it but, I don't know how to get rid of my shyness. I don't want to force myself to talk but is that the only way? Other than the fact of talking to a girl at Open lets get back to the part of how they look. All I can say(Most of the time) is sexy ladies, sexy ladies. I love their style and how they act and how they talk and how they look at you and so much other stuff. The girls here are too much. Most of them are cool to hang with even though there are bad qualities in them but, everyone has a bad quality in them some where. Most of them aren't fake at least most of the time. I don't think I would like Open at all if there weren't any cute girls here. They bring more fun into being at school with other people who aren't fun at all. They allow you to enjoy life for what it is. When I see girls with a positive attitude all the time I find that really sexy. When Open girls do the things they do I find myself everyday just gazing at them as they pass me in the hallways. Now that the weather is getting hotter I really find girls looking too sexy. What else is there to say? There was one girl that was at Open that I really found sexy. Megan was one fine girl I swear she was. Why did someone that sexy have to leave? Now I can't even talk to her anymore. I wish we could have grown closer than what we did. Whenever I think about how a relationship would be with some of the girls at Open I think most would make a good girlfriend because they  don't seem like girls who would go cheat on you. I want to go into detail about chicks I think are cute but I don't want to disappoint anyone. What else, what else? I don't know anything else but, for all those guys at Open High if you aren't talking to any girls then you have some mad serious issues...

YOU DON'T KNOW ME

Isn't it crazy for someone to tell you that you act like someone else? Especially when people that don't even know you well try to say that. I've had a couple of times where people tried to say that about me but, the truth is, is that people who don't like how you act try to find a reason for why act like that and just say anything. I'm not the same person as anyone else  whether we have similarities or not. People say things about you that aren't even true and they know it but, still just say it to say it. Why? Some of  my peers seem like they don't like it when you change but, when they change things about them its alright. I don't care what they think but they get annoying when they complain about little stuff like that. If they don't like how I act then can't they just stop talking to me and being my friend? Or do they just want to complain about nothing? Kids don't realize when they act like they know you and they really don't. If you have your ups and downs with a person and you start acting different towards them then there shouldn't be any problem with you being different but, there are people who don't understand. They don't understand the meaning of change or the reason of change but, they won't even try. They just tell you that they don't like it. And when you haven't even changed but, you just show that side of you one day why do people assume that you all of a sudden changed? When will people stop assuming and accept you for you instead of all this crying about nothing?

WHERE IS THE RESPECT??

Why is it that the people that you are better friends with than anyone else are the people who don't respect you. You can't be friends with someone who can't treat you like you want to be treated. And the part about that that is even worst is when they get mad if you do the same thing back to them. I HATE when people do that. When ever people do that to me I always catch an attitude with them because it's so annoying. Also when I have people that act different towards you when they are around other people. Like if I'm hanging out with someone then someone else they know comes over to where we are and the friend i was hanging with at first just changes their whole attitude and starts saying smart remarks towards you. Even though they say that they are playing. So to prevent myself from being mad I'll try to tell the person about it but if they keep denying it then I'll eventually just stop talking to them. If you can't respect me then don't talk to me because I don't have time for immaturity from my peers. Why don't people see it when they don't show others respect? Are they truly blind of seeing it or do they not even care about the other person. Verbally disrespecting someone is one thing but if someone ever disrespected physically like knocked something out of my hand or pushed me I would definitely not give them much of a chance to stop as I would if they just said something through words. But, for fact usually I would hit someone for doing something like that for no reason. For those out there that I know who don't show me the respect I show them i will have to start treating them badly if they can't change and i have no problem with that.

BE GRATEFUL

Why is it that ever time I look at what people do the word grateful pops into my head? And I'm not saying that they are grateful it is the fact that they aren't grateful. People always look at what they don't have but, why don't they look at what they do have. I am usually grateful for things I have and most of the itme you won't see me saying "I wish I had that" or "I want that" because I like what i have. The fact is that everyone doesn't even have and would love to have it. All of my possesions could be gone at anytime but they are still here which is good so if I started wanting more and more things without an end what would that mean about me. I don't mean to be a hypocrite because I need to say "thank you" more than I do but, why do people think that would they have is garanteed? I do things for people and sometimes they don't thank me. So what do I do? I stop doing it for them to see how they feel. The only way for me to deal with someone who isn't thankful is to stop providing for them. I don't have to do anything that I don't want to but people won't see it until I don't provide for them. Maybe that's what should happen to them just to show and prove that they should be grateful or they will have nothing. Everyday isn't garanteed for anyone so why aren't people even thankful for that. They might say they are but, I beat that some those Christians out there don't thank God for everyday that he gives them. People need to change and for the better of them or misfortunes may happen to them. When I do something for someone and may want something in return that isn't that serious, why do they take it that way? Do they not know how it feels to really owe someone something? In the end being grateful will definently make life better.

MISTAKES

Whenever I look back at the past I realize that I have made so many mistakes that it doesn't make sense. Then I ask myself "Why did I do that"? I don't know why I did some of the things that I have. Plus they end up hurting me which causes me even more confusion. If i ever had the chance to go into the past and chose what and what not to do I would definently take the oppurtunity because life would surely be different without mistakes. Relationships and other things could be better, and I could have things in my possesion that I wouldn't have had before. Sometimes I get upset just thinking about all of that because I didn't have to do those things but I chose to. And some of my choices were very stupid ones. Ones that could have changed alot to make things better but, instead made things alot worst for me. I've said the wrong things to girls and friends in general. Some people that I know I should have never met because all they do is cause trouble for you. If it was ever possible to see the outcome of everything life would be so much easier. I wouldn't have to worry about people being mad at me or me being mad at people. Things that I have had would still be here and i may have even gained something from not making any mistake. Life can be so hard on you because of the fact that you must carry the burden of your mistakes all your life. It isn't easy at all. i wish my mistakes would all go away but, the fact is that it won't so I need to try my hardest to forget about my mistakes and move on. maybe mistakes aren't that serious and I'm taking it in the wrong way. Either way life goes on and i need to realize the mistakes are a part of life and will continue to happen to me for as long as I live. I'm not perfect so whatever happens just happens and theer isn't anything i can do about the past so the only thing i should be focused on is the future and the present.